Wednesday, June 16, 2010
no longer homeless
I'm curntently liveing in a basement suite, still don't have a computer or internet.
Monday, February 15, 2010
moving hell
so stright up, from the top.
My Roommates are jerks. we were told to clean the place befor we moved.
What that meant to them, take thier shit and bolt.
I spent about an hour this morning argueing about that.
Then most my afternoon, doing it myself.....
They took every roll of tolet paper, ie didn't leave anyfor those who are next. (it's polite to leave 2 rolls per bathroom not nessasry, but 1 roll in the entire house would of been better)
Just about anything not nailed down was taken. every stuff i told them was garbage, repeativly.
Now i'm crashing at Runt's place for acouple of days Bored out of my mind. Nothing to do becuase all my stuff is in storage. to broke to drink or get pot. if i want a Smoke i gotta take a walk.
Atleast i'm not at my Dad's.
My Roommates are jerks. we were told to clean the place befor we moved.
What that meant to them, take thier shit and bolt.
I spent about an hour this morning argueing about that.
Then most my afternoon, doing it myself.....
They took every roll of tolet paper, ie didn't leave anyfor those who are next. (it's polite to leave 2 rolls per bathroom not nessasry, but 1 roll in the entire house would of been better)
Just about anything not nailed down was taken. every stuff i told them was garbage, repeativly.
Now i'm crashing at Runt's place for acouple of days Bored out of my mind. Nothing to do becuase all my stuff is in storage. to broke to drink or get pot. if i want a Smoke i gotta take a walk.
Atleast i'm not at my Dad's.
Monday, February 08, 2010
so anyways
I'm alive. i'm told more alive then ever by runt.... swear runt's on drugs.... ofcourse no one believes me cuase i'm just the crazy drug addict anyways...
anyways I'm out of the folks house, then me and my room mates gotta move due to many eviction notices (3, from different sources, and oddly all perfectly legal all 3) thankfuly it takes me about 3 years to unpack, so only having been here a month i had just books and music unpacked...
moving, moving, moving... fun
on other fronts things apear to be flowing. a few years and numbers will be back to what they were if not who they were.
anyways I'm out of the folks house, then me and my room mates gotta move due to many eviction notices (3, from different sources, and oddly all perfectly legal all 3) thankfuly it takes me about 3 years to unpack, so only having been here a month i had just books and music unpacked...
moving, moving, moving... fun
on other fronts things apear to be flowing. a few years and numbers will be back to what they were if not who they were.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Moving....
So it's finnally happening. over the next week or so i'll be offline while i move and untill this place gets the internet and i get the computer brad gave me working.... so maybe febuary.
umm yaa wish me luck.
I'm so going to need it
umm yaa wish me luck.
I'm so going to need it
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Monday, December 07, 2009
lisening to warnings
let me start by saying it's fucking cold....
so cold i don't want to go for smokes.... i might really quit, pigs might fly.
One long and cold walk down to the store to grab smokes, it rung out clear as a bell. The warning i got from Jared (i think that was his name, i think i made a subway joke or tweelve), 'she'll drop you like a bag of bricks, and you'll look like a bag of bricks hit ya, i sugest to braek it off with her' I didn't trust the guy. ofcourse he had spent a chuck of the night making threats at me so that dosn't improve my opion of anyone. good night otherwise.
A canoe instructer making drity jokes, my groups leader giving me the drity eye as he moved to watch his kid, trying to tell me to behave... same old same old
Friend from school was tring to convince me the trip over tha trust was importent and that i needed to trust someone.i had been drinking alot that year, and he didn't want to see any accedents happen on the fairy trip.which means i was stoned befor i even got to camp and numb to the world. i snaped out of it ran booted out of there.
I was smokeing a joint and about to leave for a bar, she scares the shit out of me and asks if that really where i want to go.
done for now
so cold i don't want to go for smokes.... i might really quit, pigs might fly.
One long and cold walk down to the store to grab smokes, it rung out clear as a bell. The warning i got from Jared (i think that was his name, i think i made a subway joke or tweelve), 'she'll drop you like a bag of bricks, and you'll look like a bag of bricks hit ya, i sugest to braek it off with her' I didn't trust the guy. ofcourse he had spent a chuck of the night making threats at me so that dosn't improve my opion of anyone. good night otherwise.
A canoe instructer making drity jokes, my groups leader giving me the drity eye as he moved to watch his kid, trying to tell me to behave... same old same old
Friend from school was tring to convince me the trip over tha trust was importent and that i needed to trust someone.i had been drinking alot that year, and he didn't want to see any accedents happen on the fairy trip.which means i was stoned befor i even got to camp and numb to the world. i snaped out of it ran booted out of there.
I was smokeing a joint and about to leave for a bar, she scares the shit out of me and asks if that really where i want to go.
done for now
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Sometimes i think it's a sin when i feel like i'm winning when i'm losing again
so gordon lightfoot one of my favorite writers.
I tell lies. alot i'm good at it. I'm tried of it. I won't come clean to all but to those it maters it's always on their face they knew the whole time.
I see it as a game. Me against the truth. the more i strech it the more points for me. the more i get others to believe the better. If i show i beleive what i say it dosn't matter if it's truth they know i beleive it is which puts doubt in their heads as to what i say. constant keeping to the same lies has made most beleive me, those who think i'm lieing wonder as to what i'm lieing about when befor they were sure.
Somepeople dig their own grave. I think i've dug hole the size of a lake by now and filled it my lies. I dream that i'm at the bottom of the lake trying to swim through my lies to the surface. the moon shinny down my only light. With it i fight to the top every night. But when i reach the top the sun beats fericly down and i swim scared back to the bottom. it's to cold at the bottom to stay and i see things if i sit there to long so i swim back to the surface. it's always a longer trip up then down.
I tell lies. alot i'm good at it. I'm tried of it. I won't come clean to all but to those it maters it's always on their face they knew the whole time.
I see it as a game. Me against the truth. the more i strech it the more points for me. the more i get others to believe the better. If i show i beleive what i say it dosn't matter if it's truth they know i beleive it is which puts doubt in their heads as to what i say. constant keeping to the same lies has made most beleive me, those who think i'm lieing wonder as to what i'm lieing about when befor they were sure.
Somepeople dig their own grave. I think i've dug hole the size of a lake by now and filled it my lies. I dream that i'm at the bottom of the lake trying to swim through my lies to the surface. the moon shinny down my only light. With it i fight to the top every night. But when i reach the top the sun beats fericly down and i swim scared back to the bottom. it's to cold at the bottom to stay and i see things if i sit there to long so i swim back to the surface. it's always a longer trip up then down.
Friday, November 20, 2009
a plan that back fires part 1
Materials:
Myself
Hockey Chick (what can i say she did play a mean game of it, Rugby too)
3 months of time
High School Rumour mill
At work right now the area of the parking lot where people smoke is blocked in by snow, you can only get in though the store. Myself and some guys from work were talking one day about different ways of braking up with a girl. Apparently mine was the worst and because i have time and nothing better to do I'm going to give the longer version, not the full mind you, i don't know it....
So I had just started a new school, (no real surprise for a while it was a different school every month....) and this time it's a bum start. I'm 2 grades behind my age, so they are hitting graduation year and I'm stuck in ten. Friends? the foreign exchange student and Runt...
Runt introduced me to his friends and then kindly asked me to go away.... So i spent the day smoking at the school's pit... end of the day rolls around I sat outside by Runt and his friends seen as we were waiting for the same bus home and read off to the side. Runt's Friends grow to larger group till i get absorbed and am sitting beside a cute brown haired girl very talkative. Had a set of Boobs that screamed over developed...
After awhile me and her became almost attached. It was weird, the girl sliped her hand in mind after acouple of weeks and tells me we are a couple. not many trust me with that kinda thing, left to myself all put off asking a girl for years. i'd put this off 2 months so she made my mind for me...
She was stright forward, to the point and honest, in her own way. had to find out the hard way how old she was.
Febuwary comes around and that's when i'm asked to the office at school. Frist yelling, second silence, third me asking why the yelling? The princpal explains that it would be wrong for a 50 year old to date a 20 year old. I ask how that applies to what. fillanly realiseing i have no clue at what he's talking about he pulls out my file and pulls out Her file. opens them both to the frist page and blocks everything on hers but name and date.
I was born in 1986, She was born in 1992 (if i rember correctly). Apearently the school frowns on this.
The princpal tells me under the sercumstances me and him should have a (and i qoute cuase this i remeber well) 'Man-to-Man talk about the birds and the bees' which really ment me spending an hour convinveing him i would do anything till she was ready (always been my opoin, let them make the frist move, i'm lazy). Had to explain a million things to him about myself, but what finnally convinced him i think is when i told him about scouts. odd that, considering what went on at the camps i went to, he should have been worried.
So i'm unsure what i should do by the end of this all. I'm way to old for her at that time (it being highschool 6 years is huge) was my frist thought, How mature she was my second, wondering what the crap i should do.
and that seems like a good point to end the frist bit of this, i started this back in febuary but just still can't the end out right but this nags at me. so i'm puting the frist half
Myself
Hockey Chick (what can i say she did play a mean game of it, Rugby too)
3 months of time
High School Rumour mill
At work right now the area of the parking lot where people smoke is blocked in by snow, you can only get in though the store. Myself and some guys from work were talking one day about different ways of braking up with a girl. Apparently mine was the worst and because i have time and nothing better to do I'm going to give the longer version, not the full mind you, i don't know it....
So I had just started a new school, (no real surprise for a while it was a different school every month....) and this time it's a bum start. I'm 2 grades behind my age, so they are hitting graduation year and I'm stuck in ten. Friends? the foreign exchange student and Runt...
Runt introduced me to his friends and then kindly asked me to go away.... So i spent the day smoking at the school's pit... end of the day rolls around I sat outside by Runt and his friends seen as we were waiting for the same bus home and read off to the side. Runt's Friends grow to larger group till i get absorbed and am sitting beside a cute brown haired girl very talkative. Had a set of Boobs that screamed over developed...
After awhile me and her became almost attached. It was weird, the girl sliped her hand in mind after acouple of weeks and tells me we are a couple. not many trust me with that kinda thing, left to myself all put off asking a girl for years. i'd put this off 2 months so she made my mind for me...
She was stright forward, to the point and honest, in her own way. had to find out the hard way how old she was.
Febuwary comes around and that's when i'm asked to the office at school. Frist yelling, second silence, third me asking why the yelling? The princpal explains that it would be wrong for a 50 year old to date a 20 year old. I ask how that applies to what. fillanly realiseing i have no clue at what he's talking about he pulls out my file and pulls out Her file. opens them both to the frist page and blocks everything on hers but name and date.
I was born in 1986, She was born in 1992 (if i rember correctly). Apearently the school frowns on this.
The princpal tells me under the sercumstances me and him should have a (and i qoute cuase this i remeber well) 'Man-to-Man talk about the birds and the bees' which really ment me spending an hour convinveing him i would do anything till she was ready (always been my opoin, let them make the frist move, i'm lazy). Had to explain a million things to him about myself, but what finnally convinced him i think is when i told him about scouts. odd that, considering what went on at the camps i went to, he should have been worried.
So i'm unsure what i should do by the end of this all. I'm way to old for her at that time (it being highschool 6 years is huge) was my frist thought, How mature she was my second, wondering what the crap i should do.
and that seems like a good point to end the frist bit of this, i started this back in febuary but just still can't the end out right but this nags at me. so i'm puting the frist half
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
ODST Check.
So after about a month of crawling around New Mombasa's streets.
Runt has Acquired a more powerful machine and given me the old heap of a computer to try and use.
Brutes Everywhere. tend to wander in packs. about 4 to 6 in a pack, but don't get pined in a intersection. that's when they tend to come from all directions, 3 packs of brutes... about 15 in total. some jackals and grunts but one shot from my pistol they go down, brutes can go down in one shot, but you'll need a rocket launcher, fuel rod gun, Spartan laser or a sniper rifle (i think that's all that can, sniper needs a perfect shot to do this) Or if your brave or stupid you can do what i do, run straight at them tossing grenades. 3 frags, one to the left, to the right and behind them, this puts the Brutes closer together. Sticky grenade the Brutes on the edges driving all the brutes closer together. Repeat this with your Spike grenades. Done right you'll be down to about 2 Brutes, Done Better you'll take them all out, Done like me you'll leave 10 of them still alive but in a very small area. Then my friends it's incendiary grenades. Now that's all the grenades it lets you have. the standard weapons to carry are a Pistol and either an assault rifle or a machine gun. Now the brutes are gone. and every thing is a little to quite. That would be to the Hunters comeing up fast behind you. Walking tanks with a green beam of death. They travel in pairs...
Work is feeling more tight. stareing at the keyboard trying to add to that.....
Reading Death Gate Cycle again, i think this makes 6th or 7th time reading them. as normal i wonder if it was the wave correcting itself or if that was the start of a bulge.
And i wonder if my difficults with speech might come from the fact that i never read anything set in the current era.
Really uncomforable moment at work a while back. Freind from highschool came in looking for me in a panic, with her 3 year old red head daughter.... Not mine >.<>.<>.< took a damn week to strighten that mess out. and is about all i can say befor i expoled....
So i'm going to watch an Austrain soap star trun one hit wonder (in north america) and other strage video's i can find
Beware the Internsection....
Runt has Acquired a more powerful machine and given me the old heap of a computer to try and use.
Brutes Everywhere. tend to wander in packs. about 4 to 6 in a pack, but don't get pined in a intersection. that's when they tend to come from all directions, 3 packs of brutes... about 15 in total. some jackals and grunts but one shot from my pistol they go down, brutes can go down in one shot, but you'll need a rocket launcher, fuel rod gun, Spartan laser or a sniper rifle (i think that's all that can, sniper needs a perfect shot to do this) Or if your brave or stupid you can do what i do, run straight at them tossing grenades. 3 frags, one to the left, to the right and behind them, this puts the Brutes closer together. Sticky grenade the Brutes on the edges driving all the brutes closer together. Repeat this with your Spike grenades. Done right you'll be down to about 2 Brutes, Done Better you'll take them all out, Done like me you'll leave 10 of them still alive but in a very small area. Then my friends it's incendiary grenades. Now that's all the grenades it lets you have. the standard weapons to carry are a Pistol and either an assault rifle or a machine gun. Now the brutes are gone. and every thing is a little to quite. That would be to the Hunters comeing up fast behind you. Walking tanks with a green beam of death. They travel in pairs...
Work is feeling more tight. stareing at the keyboard trying to add to that.....
Reading Death Gate Cycle again, i think this makes 6th or 7th time reading them. as normal i wonder if it was the wave correcting itself or if that was the start of a bulge.
And i wonder if my difficults with speech might come from the fact that i never read anything set in the current era.
Really uncomforable moment at work a while back. Freind from highschool came in looking for me in a panic, with her 3 year old red head daughter.... Not mine >.<>.<>.< took a damn week to strighten that mess out. and is about all i can say befor i expoled....
So i'm going to watch an Austrain soap star trun one hit wonder (in north america) and other strage video's i can find
Beware the Internsection....
Friday, September 25, 2009
and then the computer died....
So i borrow a computer from Runt. it's his but i use it when i need one, not often. It died horrible in a blaze of Windows glory.
It's been to weeks and hw talked to his freind the necromancer. Various odd rituals were performed and Bam it is working again. but now that it works i'm not on becuase on tuesday ODST was released.
I'm slowly beating the whole game on the hardest difficulty. I say slowly but mean at a snails pace. i'll proboly post again after i have finsished.
c ya
Edit: Considering it's 5 min later.... i might as well add some random things i've noticed in the last couple of weeks.
I don't lisen to 'scouting songs' anymore. By scouting songs i mean more then songs sung at the fire, I mean all sorts of music that i wouldn't ever hear anywhere eles. Arrogant Worms and Great big sea mostly but Moxy Furios (i hate spelling) and Crash test dummies. Out of those 4 Bands I have 1 CD from Crash test dummies. It's a greatest hits which i lisen to 2 of 12 songs....
so i'm making a note to find some. Maybe that will fill some gaps. Ofcourse that's wishful thinking. It's not knowing why and how some of these things i remeber happened, that is going to drive me crazy. >.< and now i'm censoring myself, I really don't think i know how to be truthful. I aways tell bits and peices. it's part of what's lead to my memory proplems i think.
I watched Greg jump and start running, he was trying to slug me, around 6 years old at the time. Me and Greg were thick as theives our sisters the same way. I learned that day it was possable to do just about anything that needed to happen. some things need to happen for the future to turn out. if things are going astray something ussally corrects this. My understanding was that a human, in truth, had no future. short time on the rock unless you get kicked off early.
Specking of kicked off early we now interupte this random posting with a 1 week ODST marothon.
It's been to weeks and hw talked to his freind the necromancer. Various odd rituals were performed and Bam it is working again. but now that it works i'm not on becuase on tuesday ODST was released.
I'm slowly beating the whole game on the hardest difficulty. I say slowly but mean at a snails pace. i'll proboly post again after i have finsished.
c ya
Edit: Considering it's 5 min later.... i might as well add some random things i've noticed in the last couple of weeks.
I don't lisen to 'scouting songs' anymore. By scouting songs i mean more then songs sung at the fire, I mean all sorts of music that i wouldn't ever hear anywhere eles. Arrogant Worms and Great big sea mostly but Moxy Furios (i hate spelling) and Crash test dummies. Out of those 4 Bands I have 1 CD from Crash test dummies. It's a greatest hits which i lisen to 2 of 12 songs....
so i'm making a note to find some. Maybe that will fill some gaps. Ofcourse that's wishful thinking. It's not knowing why and how some of these things i remeber happened, that is going to drive me crazy. >.< and now i'm censoring myself, I really don't think i know how to be truthful. I aways tell bits and peices. it's part of what's lead to my memory proplems i think.
I watched Greg jump and start running, he was trying to slug me, around 6 years old at the time. Me and Greg were thick as theives our sisters the same way. I learned that day it was possable to do just about anything that needed to happen. some things need to happen for the future to turn out. if things are going astray something ussally corrects this. My understanding was that a human, in truth, had no future. short time on the rock unless you get kicked off early.
Specking of kicked off early we now interupte this random posting with a 1 week ODST marothon.
Monday, September 07, 2009
Writen at 4 am, Posted at 4 pm...
I'm haveing trouble finding music to lisen to. After hear a song enough i think what it means to me.
Walked around my good intentions
And found out there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years We hardly talked
Never thought I would forget this hate
And a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
Little be side it's 4 am and i can't sleep. I've grown to hate my family for the most part. but i wonder weather it's me or them. Am i to blame for the gap that is growing. I like to blame them. But i know better i know it's me.
Walked around my room not thinking
Sinking in this box
Blame myself for being too much like Somebody else
I never thought I would just bend this way
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
When i'm in a crowd i blend in, I tend to lie and make myself sound as simular to those around me. After awhile being those people i can shunt it of and adopt a different persona, Calling up the old one if i run into those people again with just the name I use at the time. I don't think i really have any personalltiy myself except as a smart ass.
And if I don't make it known that
I loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignored because
We're both dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
So i took off teh song 4 am by Our Lady Peace off my Mp3 player. To many thing are being remebered when i hear it. I wish i could forget. There was a time i used to Teir my memory to songs, certain kinds of songs i would use for different memories. Now i listen to the radio worried I'll start to break down.
I need sleep >.<
Walked around my good intentions
And found out there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years We hardly talked
Never thought I would forget this hate
And a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
Little be side it's 4 am and i can't sleep. I've grown to hate my family for the most part. but i wonder weather it's me or them. Am i to blame for the gap that is growing. I like to blame them. But i know better i know it's me.
Walked around my room not thinking
Sinking in this box
Blame myself for being too much like Somebody else
I never thought I would just bend this way
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
When i'm in a crowd i blend in, I tend to lie and make myself sound as simular to those around me. After awhile being those people i can shunt it of and adopt a different persona, Calling up the old one if i run into those people again with just the name I use at the time. I don't think i really have any personalltiy myself except as a smart ass.
And if I don't make it known that
I loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignored because
We're both dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
So i took off teh song 4 am by Our Lady Peace off my Mp3 player. To many thing are being remebered when i hear it. I wish i could forget. There was a time i used to Teir my memory to songs, certain kinds of songs i would use for different memories. Now i listen to the radio worried I'll start to break down.
I need sleep >.<
Friday, August 21, 2009
More sorting
Always sorting piles of crap...
I can't seem to toss it out. It's not really crap. But becuase i don't under stand it, it's usless to me.
I was given a dream catcher after my sister passed. never has worked, but i'm not really that suprised seen as i don't believe in it.
An odd Pyrmid, couple inches high. People built the Pyrmids so they wouldn't be forgoten. Funny how that works....
A Charm bag to help bring good luck. that's Hit or miss.
A neckless with a Vikking dragon, One of a Bird, and a Horse
The Dragon to help with chalenges, the Bird was from a girl wanting me to open up to her, and the Horse from someone who always thought i was good at carring on.
I can't seem to toss it out. It's not really crap. But becuase i don't under stand it, it's usless to me.
I was given a dream catcher after my sister passed. never has worked, but i'm not really that suprised seen as i don't believe in it.
An odd Pyrmid, couple inches high. People built the Pyrmids so they wouldn't be forgoten. Funny how that works....
A Charm bag to help bring good luck. that's Hit or miss.
A neckless with a Vikking dragon, One of a Bird, and a Horse
The Dragon to help with chalenges, the Bird was from a girl wanting me to open up to her, and the Horse from someone who always thought i was good at carring on.
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
And the Band played on, As the Helicopters Whirled
Drunk on the lawn in a nuclear dawn, My sence is finally blurred.
So just about everyday now is becoming more say one thing think another. But i've noticed there is no around the lieing of the world. Of course I'm a born lier so I thought i would be happy. I can't remember even having to learn. I've learned some tricks to it, but it's always come easy.
I stole a guy's wallet the other day. Stole money from it and returned it to him. Not a second thought. the guy never suspected. Didn't notice it was gone till i pop up with it.
Shouldn't there be something in me that tells me when I'm doing the wrong thing?
I wanna quit my job still. Can't think of anything else i would rather do. Bored of retail. no such thing as a professional camper.... Need Driver's card for any forestry jobs (camp site or ranger, i hate chopping trees), I think cars are even more dangerous and harmful to the enviroment. And ofcourse my inabilty to clearly transfer thought to print makes that job out. Selling a couple of pictures dosn't count me as an artist (althrough i'm told the sandwich i took as payment dose...) Has no useful talents for today's today. Except Lieing...
I think i know Honest people. less then a handful, but honest. A couple are better freinds then i deserve. It's weird talking with someone who is honest.
Was reading a book (shocker indeed....) the other day and the arthor was explaining how english is falling apart. we may not notice but each generation is working on a shorter and shorter vocabulary. Yes 'new' words are made, by shoveing together words, but we lose more words in a year then are made in a centery, apparently. I'm thinking of reading a dictionary and seeing if that helps organiseing the mess. So many things i just don't know the words to explain. Mess sounds like the right word but it's not. On a side note, I've stopped dreaming. on the 17th, no reason just nothing.
So just about everyday now is becoming more say one thing think another. But i've noticed there is no around the lieing of the world. Of course I'm a born lier so I thought i would be happy. I can't remember even having to learn. I've learned some tricks to it, but it's always come easy.
I stole a guy's wallet the other day. Stole money from it and returned it to him. Not a second thought. the guy never suspected. Didn't notice it was gone till i pop up with it.
Shouldn't there be something in me that tells me when I'm doing the wrong thing?
I wanna quit my job still. Can't think of anything else i would rather do. Bored of retail. no such thing as a professional camper.... Need Driver's card for any forestry jobs (camp site or ranger, i hate chopping trees), I think cars are even more dangerous and harmful to the enviroment. And ofcourse my inabilty to clearly transfer thought to print makes that job out. Selling a couple of pictures dosn't count me as an artist (althrough i'm told the sandwich i took as payment dose...) Has no useful talents for today's today. Except Lieing...
I think i know Honest people. less then a handful, but honest. A couple are better freinds then i deserve. It's weird talking with someone who is honest.
Was reading a book (shocker indeed....) the other day and the arthor was explaining how english is falling apart. we may not notice but each generation is working on a shorter and shorter vocabulary. Yes 'new' words are made, by shoveing together words, but we lose more words in a year then are made in a centery, apparently. I'm thinking of reading a dictionary and seeing if that helps organiseing the mess. So many things i just don't know the words to explain. Mess sounds like the right word but it's not. On a side note, I've stopped dreaming. on the 17th, no reason just nothing.
Sunday, July 05, 2009
It's the end of the world as i know it, I don't feel fine....
Bloody Rem....
So work has been going well. While i was on Vacation they heird 2 new guys and fired 1 other guy.
One of the new guys is weirder then me. Watching him reminds me of a Swordfish.
But ofcourse Swordfish is a Horrible thing for me to think about. There really isn't a place for him anymore.
Leonard Bernstein
I really just don't understand, I really books all the time to learn about people. Maybe learn better more normal behavoir. But the Proplem being is that the charecters in the books Know what they want out of life. Be a Knight, Save the day, Find some random murder. I don't really have any clue what i want. Well i know one thing, but that's a whole different pile of mental issues....
This is the end *music fades to black*
So work has been going well. While i was on Vacation they heird 2 new guys and fired 1 other guy.
One of the new guys is weirder then me. Watching him reminds me of a Swordfish.
But ofcourse Swordfish is a Horrible thing for me to think about. There really isn't a place for him anymore.
Leonard Bernstein
I really just don't understand, I really books all the time to learn about people. Maybe learn better more normal behavoir. But the Proplem being is that the charecters in the books Know what they want out of life. Be a Knight, Save the day, Find some random murder. I don't really have any clue what i want. Well i know one thing, but that's a whole different pile of mental issues....
This is the end *music fades to black*
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
Hate old folks....
So it's been awhile....
nothing has happened.
I went to Vancourver for awhile so here's a quick cap of what i did...
Monday 8th of June
Arrived in Vancourver
Hung out With Ex-girlfriend from New West
Tuesday 9th
Metrotown where i watched Runt spend all his money in a anime shop (we were down to go to an anime CONVENTION for blood's sake)
Watched T.V. with a sort of ex from ladner (long story no one wants to hear, from now on 'the one from ladner')
Wensday 10th
Slept most of it, Went shoping with Grandmother for Runt (talked her out of clothes for me...)
Hung Out with an old buddy and his new girlfreind, Another old Freind, and The one from Ladner...
Thursday 11th
Went shoping for Old Buddy's Brithday, GOt him a book called Barguments: Aruments you can have with no right or wrong answer after you have had 3 drinks
Badge Pickup for the Convention. Found out there was a formal thing for charity held by the Convention that night. So i bust it to a store and buy a pair of cheap dress pants and got lent a shirt. so little to be said i crashed the Formal.... A random Girl taught me how to do a box stop >.<
Friday 12th
Friday Was the frist day of the Convention and i spent most of it looking in the vendor room or attending Panel discussions (one esay to remeber one called Con-educit was mostly on how to shower P.S. Sham-wow not a good idea)
The Ex from New west introducded me to Scott Mcneil (i think i spelled that wrong...) Big Vocie Actor dose a vocie in just about every anime i know and is half the cast of Beasties by himself (not really but run with it...) I followed along to the bar and watched him drink. has to be one of the funniest guys i have ever met. end of story
Saturday 13th
My Buddy's Brithday. Hung out with Him and Freind playing Halo3 and showing those 2 how to use forge.
then it was off to Bowling. Bowling was uncomfortable. I don't do well in crowds, or with strangers. The people i did know weren't people i liked when i lived down there. the one from Ladner was there too.... I think it's mostly becuase of her i left early. My fault really. I tend to flirt with her, and from the other night i gussed it was un-welcome. So when i hear Bowling is done and everyone was going to the Bar, i bailed. Said Good Bye to my Buddy and booked it out the door, befor the one from ladner, saw me. Spent the entire trip back to Grandmothers calling myself a spineless worm.... but i'm not getting in to that lol
Sunday the 14th
Last day of the Convention, curse the vendor room for deals and said good bye to those i met.
hung out with Ex from Newwest after... or more to the truth watched her moon over guys from twlight on the internet instead of put the bloody DVD in the player..... Runt sent the worset text messages ever and i thought he was locked out of grandmothers so i rushed back to find out while i'm on the bus (hour long trip >.<) that he was only then geting to her house and she was still up >.<
Monday the 15th
had Plans to see the Older Sister but fell out when Her son got sick.
Did see my sister. spent alot of time apolgiseing >.< (another long story)
Whent and saw my Cousins on my oldman's side. They have grown >.< still shorties but i no longer think i'll be taller in the end.
Tuesday the 16th (or the day i almost died of boredom)
Spent most of the day text Messageing a Freind to make plans, but her phone wasn't allowing her to receive messages so did hook up with her and that gang till like 4 i think. Then came the shearch for Booze...
2 hours and one pet store latter
Finnally got to relax for the frist time all bloody trip, Drinking and Smoke with 'members of the cause' (long story and a bad joke, my freinds from CABE arnt freinds, There 'Members of the Cause' the Cause being forgot about ten min latter)
Wensday 17th
Hung around Grandmothers, Went to see the older sister and her Kid.
Then went back to the ex in new west place and talked till i had to go for the last bus of the night.
Thursday 18th
Greyhound home
Spent just about every free moment from the 18th till now to decide how i feel about the trip, I really don't like what it says of me....
Wow and i thought She was good at writing confuzing stuff. This is so half assed no one is going to understand it.
nothing has happened.
I went to Vancourver for awhile so here's a quick cap of what i did...
Monday 8th of June
Arrived in Vancourver
Hung out With Ex-girlfriend from New West
Tuesday 9th
Metrotown where i watched Runt spend all his money in a anime shop (we were down to go to an anime CONVENTION for blood's sake)
Watched T.V. with a sort of ex from ladner (long story no one wants to hear, from now on 'the one from ladner')
Wensday 10th
Slept most of it, Went shoping with Grandmother for Runt (talked her out of clothes for me...)
Hung Out with an old buddy and his new girlfreind, Another old Freind, and The one from Ladner...
Thursday 11th
Went shoping for Old Buddy's Brithday, GOt him a book called Barguments: Aruments you can have with no right or wrong answer after you have had 3 drinks
Badge Pickup for the Convention. Found out there was a formal thing for charity held by the Convention that night. So i bust it to a store and buy a pair of cheap dress pants and got lent a shirt. so little to be said i crashed the Formal.... A random Girl taught me how to do a box stop >.<
Friday 12th
Friday Was the frist day of the Convention and i spent most of it looking in the vendor room or attending Panel discussions (one esay to remeber one called Con-educit was mostly on how to shower P.S. Sham-wow not a good idea)
The Ex from New west introducded me to Scott Mcneil (i think i spelled that wrong...) Big Vocie Actor dose a vocie in just about every anime i know and is half the cast of Beasties by himself (not really but run with it...) I followed along to the bar and watched him drink. has to be one of the funniest guys i have ever met. end of story
Saturday 13th
My Buddy's Brithday. Hung out with Him and Freind playing Halo3 and showing those 2 how to use forge.
then it was off to Bowling. Bowling was uncomfortable. I don't do well in crowds, or with strangers. The people i did know weren't people i liked when i lived down there. the one from Ladner was there too.... I think it's mostly becuase of her i left early. My fault really. I tend to flirt with her, and from the other night i gussed it was un-welcome. So when i hear Bowling is done and everyone was going to the Bar, i bailed. Said Good Bye to my Buddy and booked it out the door, befor the one from ladner, saw me. Spent the entire trip back to Grandmothers calling myself a spineless worm.... but i'm not getting in to that lol
Sunday the 14th
Last day of the Convention, curse the vendor room for deals and said good bye to those i met.
hung out with Ex from Newwest after... or more to the truth watched her moon over guys from twlight on the internet instead of put the bloody DVD in the player..... Runt sent the worset text messages ever and i thought he was locked out of grandmothers so i rushed back to find out while i'm on the bus (hour long trip >.<) that he was only then geting to her house and she was still up >.<
Monday the 15th
had Plans to see the Older Sister but fell out when Her son got sick.
Did see my sister. spent alot of time apolgiseing >.< (another long story)
Whent and saw my Cousins on my oldman's side. They have grown >.< still shorties but i no longer think i'll be taller in the end.
Tuesday the 16th (or the day i almost died of boredom)
Spent most of the day text Messageing a Freind to make plans, but her phone wasn't allowing her to receive messages so did hook up with her and that gang till like 4 i think. Then came the shearch for Booze...
2 hours and one pet store latter
Finnally got to relax for the frist time all bloody trip, Drinking and Smoke with 'members of the cause' (long story and a bad joke, my freinds from CABE arnt freinds, There 'Members of the Cause' the Cause being forgot about ten min latter)
Wensday 17th
Hung around Grandmothers, Went to see the older sister and her Kid.
Then went back to the ex in new west place and talked till i had to go for the last bus of the night.
Thursday 18th
Greyhound home
Spent just about every free moment from the 18th till now to decide how i feel about the trip, I really don't like what it says of me....
Wow and i thought She was good at writing confuzing stuff. This is so half assed no one is going to understand it.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Stolen plan for boredom....
Matterials:
Shovle
Box
Paper
Procedure:
Dig hole, Paper in box, Box in hole.
Bury box.
Results:
http://www.overcompensating.com/posts/20050621.html (where i got the idea from)
Conculsion:
Knowing Mischeif is in the wind is comforting.
Shovle
Box
Paper
Procedure:
Dig hole, Paper in box, Box in hole.
Bury box.
Results:
http://www.overcompensating.com/posts/20050621.html (where i got the idea from)
Conculsion:
Knowing Mischeif is in the wind is comforting.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Concert
yaa concert!
Whole household is going, except the dog :(
no one would let me bring the dog....
anyways Neil Young, tonight.
Happy Eathday
Whole household is going, except the dog :(
no one would let me bring the dog....
anyways Neil Young, tonight.
Happy Eathday
Monday, April 20, 2009
16 days latter....
and that would make it the 20th of april....
Worked today.
pretty well thinking the entire day, can't wait to get off.
Co-worker sugested faking sick so I'd be home by 4.....
He was even nice enough to help me get injuried.... >.<
anyways work was long and boring....
Almost missed my bus becuase of a customer at the last second. Glued my hand to other hand >.< Thankfuly the bus driver just nodded as i ran chasing the bus, passing the bus, and then geting on at the frist stop. With my Hands glued together, Smoking, But no bus Fair....
Then i got home, and now plan on pretending that every 20 is 4.
I really need to hook up my scaner, so many pictures ....
Worked today.
pretty well thinking the entire day, can't wait to get off.
Co-worker sugested faking sick so I'd be home by 4.....
He was even nice enough to help me get injuried.... >.<
anyways work was long and boring....
Almost missed my bus becuase of a customer at the last second. Glued my hand to other hand >.< Thankfuly the bus driver just nodded as i ran chasing the bus, passing the bus, and then geting on at the frist stop. With my Hands glued together, Smoking, But no bus Fair....
Then i got home, and now plan on pretending that every 20 is 4.
I really need to hook up my scaner, so many pictures ....
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Close enough to 11....
So tuesday we get told we shall be haveing a sale wensday... advance copy of the flyer still dosn't have pictures just prices...
Frist day of Sale... understaffed, One boss on till me working the floor and the big boss having to help. Meanwhile no help coming from the far end, They're to busy taking compaints aboot the Fishing Licences. Dam Walmart....
No i'm not working at Walmart but becuase they are bigger and cryied more they get to hand out the old Paper Licences for fishing... Bastards (note to self get warning message...)
Just came up with a plan :-D it will get me arested, yaa plan.
Can't seem to focus well....
Might be the pot
Right, that would do it....
The other day i'm up in the tree in my front yard. tieing branches and tempory braces to it. It's a Big tree, aboot 25 meters to the top (75 feet?). Healthy and still growing. Neibour comes out picks up a stick i had tossed down, Asks me 'when you taking it down?' Pointing with the stick.
I'm a little dumb founded by this. the tree's Heathy. 'We're not'
'O so your having profesanal do it?'
I Really wish my fence went around the yard... I tell Him we're not taking it down.
the Bugger spends 5 min explaining why it would be best.
I'm almost 7 meters high smoking, doing my best to land ash on his head. After he's done i Kindly explain i would like him off my proporty. When he seemed slugish i whisled For Ollie. My Dog.
Ollie isn't big but he was bread for hunting (soposaly)
now the fence is between ollie and the base off the tree,Ollie is no where near the guy. Ollie is looking for me and barking into the tree. I've done this befor to door to door salesmen, They tend to run off befor they realize Ollie can't get them...
About the time i Climbed down. Neibour Bugger called a cop and said i let a dog loose on him.
Cop comes over, asks me what happened. I explain. Whisle Ollie over. and show The offcier why the idea of Ollie leaveing teeth marks is rediculous. Ollie's lower Jaw is about a thrid to a half the size as most dogs his Breed. meaning I let him use my hand as a chew toy, no worries.
Officer puts down his pen and flips back in his note book. and reads me the discribtion for my dog gotten from the neigbour.
Bloody Neigbour couldn't spot Ollie as a Poodle. And Discribed a Bob cat >.<
Unforantly a have many stoires of upseting neigbours, less then you think invole cops :-D
The ones with Cop's are just funnyier.
Frist day of Sale... understaffed, One boss on till me working the floor and the big boss having to help. Meanwhile no help coming from the far end, They're to busy taking compaints aboot the Fishing Licences. Dam Walmart....
No i'm not working at Walmart but becuase they are bigger and cryied more they get to hand out the old Paper Licences for fishing... Bastards (note to self get warning message...)
Just came up with a plan :-D it will get me arested, yaa plan.
Can't seem to focus well....
Might be the pot
Right, that would do it....
The other day i'm up in the tree in my front yard. tieing branches and tempory braces to it. It's a Big tree, aboot 25 meters to the top (75 feet?). Healthy and still growing. Neibour comes out picks up a stick i had tossed down, Asks me 'when you taking it down?' Pointing with the stick.
I'm a little dumb founded by this. the tree's Heathy. 'We're not'
'O so your having profesanal do it?'
I Really wish my fence went around the yard... I tell Him we're not taking it down.
the Bugger spends 5 min explaining why it would be best.
I'm almost 7 meters high smoking, doing my best to land ash on his head. After he's done i Kindly explain i would like him off my proporty. When he seemed slugish i whisled For Ollie. My Dog.
Ollie isn't big but he was bread for hunting (soposaly)
now the fence is between ollie and the base off the tree,Ollie is no where near the guy. Ollie is looking for me and barking into the tree. I've done this befor to door to door salesmen, They tend to run off befor they realize Ollie can't get them...
About the time i Climbed down. Neibour Bugger called a cop and said i let a dog loose on him.
Cop comes over, asks me what happened. I explain. Whisle Ollie over. and show The offcier why the idea of Ollie leaveing teeth marks is rediculous. Ollie's lower Jaw is about a thrid to a half the size as most dogs his Breed. meaning I let him use my hand as a chew toy, no worries.
Officer puts down his pen and flips back in his note book. and reads me the discribtion for my dog gotten from the neigbour.
Bloody Neigbour couldn't spot Ollie as a Poodle. And Discribed a Bob cat >.<
Unforantly a have many stoires of upseting neigbours, less then you think invole cops :-D
The ones with Cop's are just funnyier.
